Good Bye Pepsi, Good Bye junk food!

well 6 1/2 hours from now it will be 2011.. holy crap where did time go? and how the hell did i ever let myself get this FAT!!?? thats it. new year new weight lets go down 50 lbs! starting tomorrow im going to do a semi detox over the weekend. i cant totally detox because of my meds but i can fast for a couple of days on fluids. then start my new shift! Im excited. although i am stuck in that dam snow globe again. im alive but i dont feel it. all i feel is a fat bloated cow. ya ya dont give me crap. if i cant say how i feel here then where? i did not say i am i said i FEEL. I want to feel beautiful! I want this wonderful woman i hide inside full of charisma to come out. i want sparkles in my eyes. i want to be... me!